PRISONER EXPRESS

So I sat and made a list, a long one. By doing this it's renewed my appreciation in many of these areas, and have brought on a new appreciation.

God is first on my list. Anyone who is spiritually grounded knows this: belief, faith and hope all increase strength. Especially at times when it's needed most. It's what's called inner strength.

Love is another source. At some of the lowest points in my life, love has pulled me through.

And its love that ties me to these sources:

My family and their unconditional love have always given me strength. My friends. Real friends, not the watered-down version of catch-on's that come a dime a dozen. Especially one very special one that's stood in my corner during this time in prison. From her, I've learned more in a few years than in all my years alive combined. Why? Because like family, she's been there in my times of weakness.

Have you ever had a rough day and there you are, sitting on your couch and your dog comes up to you with a goofy dog smile and no matter what, it lifts you some?

Or the same with a child? Those are all sources.

A lot of those I took for granted. I hope when I do get out I see these things the way I do now. Sitting in a tiny Ad. Seg. cell has opened my eyes to things like this. Those sources I've already listed are basically outside sources, now let me list some that aren't:

I've come to believe in the inner strength I have, and know I can always tap into that reserve when I need to. We each possess these strengths. Things like self-control, self-awareness, self-esteem, motivation, determination and confidence. The mindset of not realizing you have access to these inner strengths is what causes things like mental illness (some types), breakdowns, depression and tons of insecurities.

Inner strength is believing in yourself-having true faith and confidence in your unlimited capabilities and using them as tools to stand on your own two feet...self-reliance. Powerful inner strength?

Then there's those sources I can't explain. Like the recharged feelings I get after spending time outside on a sunny day. Maybe it's just all the senses being stimulated.

I've saved this one for last. Sobriety...you kind of have to have been an addict to understand this, but sobriety is strength. And it's 'sober' that I see and become more aware of all these other sources of strength. I sure didn't pay much attention otherwise.