PRISONER EXPRESS

I have many expectations, some good and some bad. Before I begin to tell you about these I will give you a lot of history. I was divorced in January 2000, and a month later was sent to prison for sex with a minor. The young lady I slept with was 16 at the time; I was twenty-one. Two years later while in prison I received a letter from my ex and her new husband saying I was a father. I discovered that my ex had been three months pregnant when I entered prison two years prior. Before this starts to sound like a sob story, I would like to say I deserved all of the ill fate I have received. I was a womanizer, striving to please only myself through pointless one night stands.

I said all of that to say that my expectations are high for myself in relation to my readiness to reintegrate into society. My expectations concerning my baby girl are hopeful, but I know there will be some awkward times when I first meet my daughter. Questions of where I have been for the first 6 years of her life, and not to mention dispelling the disinformation her mother may have told her about me. I expect her to be angry, but hopefully I will be able to develop a decent relationship with her.

One other thing is my being a registered sex offender. Sex offenders are seen as the worst type of criminal to the public eye today. Just as there was the war on drugs in the 90's, now there is the war on sex offenders. Society does not distinguish between my crime and pedophiles or serial rapist. So, I try to stay optimistic about the whole situation, but my expectations are very low. I am currently working on my associates in liberal arts, and plan on obtaining it before I discharge my seven years sentence February 4. I will endure whatever adversity is thrown my way. I don't expect my new life on the outside will be very easy, but my expectations for success are very high!