The journal of Jesus SalinasTable of Contents:
3/18/09Dear God, Please forgive all of my trespasses and iniquities. In all that I do and encounter, in my live, please be mu shield and sword. Give me the strength to carry on. I ask that You please walk with me during these present hard times. Why must I go through pain and suffering? Whatever the reason may be, I refuse to give in to defeat. Lord, heal me of hyperhydrosis. I ask this in the name of Jesus Christ whom died on the cross for my sins. To those on this planet, which suffer from an illness as I do, may they be healed in Your name. My prayers, today, go out to: My loved ones; all incarcerated prisoners around the world and their families, everyone living in poverty and below; those living in all third world countries, everybody here and around the world being affected by the economic crisis. Help us all, Lord. May every one of us flourish and prosper. 3/19/09Dear World, Change is possible. It is said, "United we stand, divided we fall". Who's to blame for the crisis we're currently in? The finger of blame is being pointed at the unknown. Many say and believe the former president, Bush, is the cause for the national debt. Thanks to this man we're all paying the price. In my opinion, in order for us to get out the hole we're in, we must put our minds together. 3/20/09Dear Me, Hold on, be strong. In perilous times as these, don't dispair or be dismayed. Stay focused. Keep a positive mental attitude at all times. Better days filled with bliss lie ahead. Learn from your mistakes as well as from the mistakes of others, so that you'll triumph in life. 3/21/09Dear God, First and foremost, please forgive all of my transgressions and iniquities. In all that I do and encounter, be my shield and sword. So much hatred in this world makes being alive a misery. Why must so much violence and torture take place here on earth? Is there truly a life after death? If so, whenever my time comes, I'll not hesitate. There must be a better place than earth because living on earth is Hell. Since the day that I was born, my life's been cused. Nobody truly understands how I feel. A future for me seems hopeless and out of sight. Lord, tell me what I'm living for? Is there a purpose for my life? Daily, I feel like I'm taking five steps forward and ten steps back. The more I try, to get ahead, the more I'm pushed back. What ever and whoever is wishing me failure, may the opposite occur. I yearn to do what's right and walk in Your ways. Bless my days alive and make my hopes and dreams a reality. I place in Your caring hands my sorrows and struggles. Do with me as You feel best, God. Wholeheartedly, I believe and serve only You. The "G" that I am is the one I'll remain till the day I breathe my last. My mission is to conquer strife and be successful. 3/22/09Dear Me, Pursue your goals, by any means necessary. Worry not about what others think and say, about you. Do your own time. Nobody but you can get yourself out the hole your currently in. DO not put off for tomorrow what can be done and accomplished today. 3/23/09Dear Me, You must not give up on yourself and your goals. Your loved ones care and love you a lot. THough it may not seem like it, they really do care. Pay no attention to those that aren't on the level as you. Fight fire with fire! Don't be a fool, use your head. At all times, think before you speak and act. Overcome adversity and stay focused on your priorities. Let those that despise you be your aspiration. SInce the beginning of time, everybody did not get along with each other. You can't please everyone. Be yourself. Learn from past mistakes and be successful in life. You can do it! Don't allow Hyperhydrosis to suppress you. Keep your head up. 3/24/09Dear God, Please forgive all of my transgressions and iniquities. As Samson, in the book of Judges, be my strength. Walk with me on this road my feet tread on. With all of my heart and soul, I truly believe in You and Your Son, Jesus Christ. In all that I do, and encounter, be my shield and sword. All is possible by the power of Your mighty words and hands. Though I've lived a sinful life, I long to do whats right and walk in Your ways. I shall not be discouraged or dismayed, because in You I believe. I place in Your hands all the sorrows and struggles I bear. Lord, ease the pain from my brain, so that I may think clearly. Feel my pain, Lord all mighty. Lift this evil curse which has brought upon my life much pain and suffering. In the name of Jesus Christ I ask this of You, Lord. 3/25/09Dear Me, Fear nothing! No guts, no glory! You cannot score a goal sitting on the sideline, you gotta get in the game! Worry not what critics think and say, of you. Stay on point and on note. The all-knowing God, Creator of the universe, understands your struggles and circumstances. Stick to your principles and values, don't compromise or belittle your persona and beliefs. Die for what you stand and represent. Remember: Death is a transition from this world to the next. Only God can honestly judge you. Have no doubt of what your abilities can accomplish, and bring you success. In times of danger, don't freeze! Fight fire with fire. Never hesitate to seek vengence for being wronged and betrayed. Stand tall, and live life to the fullest. There's no guarantee that you'll live to see tomorrow, so be ambitious and adventurous! 3/26/09Dear World, Being in prison feels like living in another world. WHo, truly, understands prison life, You gotta live this to feel this. A change must take place in order to decrease the incarceration rate. During these stressful times, we're all living in, we must have faith in God. 3/27/09Dear Me, Under the current circumstances your in, right now, don't dispair or be dismayed. Things could be a lot worse, but to every person life deals with them differently. Count your blessings. Be thankful for the things you have, not upset for the things you don't. Have patience, good things come to those who wait. Keep your priorities in perspective. In all that you do, always remain real with yourself. Stick to your code of ethics, at all times and circumstances. By any means necessary, survive and prevail. 3/28/09Dear World, From the depths of (Ad-Seg) Administrative Segregation, an aggravated man yearns to be heard and understood. I'm on the inside lookin' out. Down but not out of the life. Physically confined but mentally free. This fall, is a minor set back for a major come back. Ambition over adversity! Regardless how many times I may fall, I refuse to surrender. I'd rather die on my feet than live on my knees like a coward. Only GOd can judge me. Never will I ever be content livn' in prison. The day of my release will be true bliss compared to this. I see light at the end of the tunnel. BEtter days shall come, so we must not despair. The recession is a test. We're all feeling the pain of the affects of the current financial crisis. It's gonna get worse before it gets better. 3/29/09Dear Me, Don't allow for these current Hard Times to get you down and rob you of happiness. Keep your head up! Worry not about things that are beyond your control. Stay in touch with reality. Seek ways to overcome adversity in your life. Motivate yourself to become a better man and triumph in all that you set out to do. Let not past mistakes keep you from achieving success. No matter how many times you fall, pick yourself up and try again. Believe in yourself. Let those that despise and wish you failure be your aspiration. Be smart, use your head to make good choices and decisions. Fight fire with fire! The mind is a terrible to let go to waste, so make your mind strong and sharp as a scalpel! 3/30/09Dear God, Please forgive all of my transgressions and iniquities. I admit I've done a lot of wrong in my life. I yearn to change my ways so that I may better serve You, my Lord. I truly believe in You and Your Son Jesus Christ, with all of my heart and soul. Walk with me, Lord, on this road which my feet tread on. Be my shield and sword, as I battle against the evil forces of mankind. As I lie in the depths of prison, give me the strength to carry on and arise to see better days. I place in Your hands all of my pain and suffering. Heal all of my ills which plague my life. Remove the curse which has been placed on my life since birth. Allow for me to see and understand the Bible scriptures that I read daily. Let the truth be revealed concerning the existence of mankind. All of this I ask in Your name, Lord, and in the name of Your Son Jesus Christ. 3/31/09Dear Me, Focus on your goals from the first moment You wake up in the morning. It isn't too late to change your life. Learn from your mistakes and triumph in all that you set out to do. Keep in mind: time and tide wait for no man. Seek ways to further and strengthen your cause. Against all odds! He/Her who is not with you is against you. Trying to please everyone is impossible! Be yourself, don't change for everybody! 4/1/09Dear Me, Keep your head held high. Hold on, be strong. You'll get through these current tough times. Focus on your goals from the first moment you wake up! In times of danger, don't freeze, time to be a soldier. Keep in mind: be the change you expect. A thousand mile journey begins with the first step. In all that you set out to achieve (in Your life) believe you can accomplish it. 4/2/09Dear Me, Believe in something, believe in yourself! Stay in touch with reality. You must make plans and set goals for yourself. Seek your life's task. Once you discover what it is, stick to it. Don't allow to be distracted. Stay focused on your goals. Keep in mind: having hyperhydrosis means You must strive twice as hard than the average person. 4/3/09Dear God, Please forgive all of my transgressions and iniquities. I admit I've done a lot of wrong throughout my life. So much hatred and animosity, on this planet, makes being sinless very hard. Walk with me, Lord, on this road I travel. Be my shield and sword, when I battle adversity and those who wish to bring me down. Give me the strength and courage to carry me through these current tough times in my life. My prayers go out to: All of my loved ones; All incarcerated prisoners and their families; Everyone living in third world countries; Everyone living in poverty and below the poverty line; Everyone around the world currently being affected by the economic crisis. Lord, please help us all overcome these difficult times. All of this I ask in Your mighty name, God, and in name of Your heavenly son Christ Jesus. 4/4/09Dear Me, Stand tall, don't be discouraged or dismayed! Stay in touch with reality! Focus on your goals from the very first moment you wake up. Life's too short, for you to spend your days on nonsense. Discover your life's task. Once discovered, stick to it and make the best of it. Keep in mind: nothing in this world is free. Everything comes with a price. Tomorrow's not promised, so don't put off for tomorrow what can be done today. In times of adversity, don't despair. Learn to cope and overcome the obstacles in your life. You can do it! 4/5/09Dear Me, Keep your head up, man! After the rain, there's sunshine and the appearance of a rainbow and its beautiful vivid colors. You gotta fight to keep your dreams alive. Take the initiative to make all of your goals a reality! Be the change You expect, don't go with the flow. Take a stand! Speak your mind and voice your opinion. If you make an effort, You can make an enormous difference in your life and in the lives of others. You can't fail if You never try, so make it happen. Knowledge is Power! 4/6/09Dear World, West Texas weather is crazy! One day it's Sunny and beautiful, the next day it's cold and windy. Though it's officially Spring season, it sure doesn't feel like it down here in West Texas. I can't really complain, because honestly I'm a Winter-born baby. I love and enjoy the Winter season. The reason is: if one gets cold he/she can put a jacket on; one can play in snow; build a snow man; go skiing; sit around a fire; etc. This year, here in West Texas not very much snow fell. Three years ago, we received four inches of snow. Too bad I couldn't go out and play in it. Due to me being in Administrative Segregation (Ad-Seg), I had to settle for a window view of the falling snow. Hopefully this Winter coming up I'll witness more snow. 07 April 2009Dear World, Today was a bad day for me. The State Classification Committee (SCC) told me to remain on current status until 10/09. I wasn't really expecting to be released (today) being that I am a line-1, but I made the effort. The SCC Representative Ms. Woodall, said that I need to "give her a little more time." Another thing she said was, "I don't know about the other SCC Representatives, but I, myself, am not light on staff assaults." Before I exited the room I asked: How much longer is a little more time? I wanted a specific time period so that I could know, but all she said was "a little more time." I may not have made it this go round, but I definitely expect to be released from AlJ-SEG in October. To be exact, next time I go in front of an SCC representative I'll be an S-4 status and have done five years in AlJ-SEG. There should not be "no" excuse why I should not be released to General Population (GP). Every passing day, I spend here in AlJ-SEG, I look for way to be back out into General Population (GP). Winners never quit! I'm a true fighter at heart. 08 April 2009Dear Me, Keep your spirits up! Don't despair, better days shall come. In all that you do and encounter a thing of the past, don't let it bring you down. Take it as a minor set back for a major come back. October is only six months away, so take advantage of the time you have to better prepare yourself for General Population. At all times of the day, remain focused on your goals. Accept being in Ad-Seg as a learning experience, not as it being the intended purpose. Enhance and improve your persona in ways that'll bring you success. Keep in mind: Winners never quit! As a fighter, the best isn't the one who can take the most blows, it's the one who maintains control of the fight. Therefore strengthen you mind and body, so that you'll have what it takes when life's challenges arise. Don't be left behind or caught unprepared! Take control of you life, by whatever means necessary. Keys to ignition, use at your discretion. Believe you can achieve, all that you set out to accomplish in life. Never mix business with pleasure! Keep a Money Over Bullshit mentality, on a high note. No guts, no glory! Stay focused! 09 April 2009Dear Me, Hold on, be strong, this is only a sojourn. Better days filled with "bliss" shall come. Pay no mind to what others think and say about you, no one knows you better than you know yourself. Stay focused! From the very first moment you wake up, focus on your goals. Keep your priorities straight. Read and learn all that you possibly can. Knowledge is Power! The more you know, the more benefits you can gain. Simplify all that you find to be complex, so that life will be easily navigated. Life's a mystery to be lived, not a problem to be solved. 10 April 2009Dear God, Please forgive all of my transgressions and iniquities. I ask (plead) that you not fail me. Stand by me as I walk through life's challenges. Give me the strength I need, to carry me through. In all that I do and encounter, I shall not be discouraged or dismayed. I'm a valiant soldier. I play in your hands all of my troubles and sorrows. Until the end of time, I look forward towards being in Heaven. I believe in you and your heavenly Son Jesus Christ, with all of my heart and soul. 11 April 2009Dear Me, I'm still in limbo. Today the weather seems wonderful. Honestly, it's beginning to feel like Spring season. The rain we received today, is a sign of warm weather to come soon. Being here in West Texas one can never know, for sure, how the weather's going to turn out. It can't be Global Warming because this has been happening for many, many centuries. Oh well, I'm just enjoying and living in this lifetime for the time being. I've got a limited view of the outside. A small narrow window is all I have to see the movement occurring on the outside of my cell. It being so high up, I have to roll-up my mattress in order to see out. But all the hassle is worth enjoying a view of the outside world. 12 April 2009Dear World, My little sister's birthday is today. She turns 22 years old. I wish her the best in life. May God allow for her to live to celebrate many, many more. Out of the two sisters I have, only my little sister is loyal to me. My other sister gave up on me many years ago. To her I'm out of sight and out of mind. Her and many other people I knew, don't feel my struggle all they see is my trouble. Time marches on, with or without them. Little do they know, I'm destined for success. Only those that have been loyal to me are going to receive my blessings. Life goes on, no need to dwell on the past. Good things come to those who wait patiently. I love all who love me. I'm against all odds on this planet. True fact: Since birth, I've been loved by few and hated by many. 13 April 2009Dear Me, Keep marching forward till the journey is over. So much pressure in this word, you gotta maintain a level head. Remember: Business before pleasure. At all times, "Money Over Bullshit!" Don't allow prison to destroy you sanity, stay focused. Keep a Positive Mental Attitude at all times. Think before you act and speak. Don't do something you'll regret later on in life. Make every punch count! No matter how many times you may fall, get back up and continue to fight. Stay focused on your goals every moment of the day. You have the potential to achieve your goals and reach great heights. 14 April 2009Dear Me, This morning while I was at the Ad-Seg Medical Clinic, I received good news. The nurse that brought me my wart medication, so I could apply it my index fingers said, "Hey, last night I seen a little girl that has the same condition you have (Hyperhydrosis). Doctors performed surgery on her nerves so that excessive perspiration would not continue to occur." I felt a relief after receiving this news. I am not the only one suffering from Hyperhydrosis. There's gotta be something other than surgery that can reduce the excessive hands and feet perspiration. I ain't giving up, searching for a cure. My mission is to find a cure for "Hyperhydrosis" so that I and everyone else who's suffering from this condition can live a normal life. 15 April 2009Dear Me, Stay on top of your game at all times! Remain focused on your goals from the very first moment you wake up. Time and tide wait for no man! If you want to make a million, you gotta stay dealin'. Stay in touch with reality. In all that you do and encounter, be bold and valiant. The more danger, the more honor. In perilous times, don't freeze, be a soldier of valor. The pen is mightier than the sword. Learn to fight fire with fire. Don't be left behind, stay in step. Where there's a will there's a way. Never give up! Keep you head up, and be victorious in life. 16 April 2009Dear Me, Don't let your medical condition (Hyperhydrosis) steal your joy. Focus on your goals, regardless of the current circumstances in your life. Only way your going to reach your destination is if you keep striving and moving forward. Care not about what others think and say of you. Believe that you can accomplish your goals, and it shall become a reality. Flourish and prosper! 17 April 2009Dear World, I'm still in limbo! Doing my best to keep my head up and stay afloat. Exercising five days a week to say fit and release aggravation. Every passing day, I'm here in Ad-Seg, is pure hell. I long to be released back into general population. I shall not despair, my day shall come. I refuse to be kept down! Winners never quit! I shall rise to greater heights. This is only a minor set back, for a major come back. 18 April 2009Dear Me, Focus on your goals from the first moment you wake up! Get your priorities straight! Advance in life, don't be a numskull. You can't expect to soar like an eagle, if you hang out with buzzards every day. Keep in mind: Business before pleasure. Ambition over adversity! You have what it takes to be a successful person, in this lifetime. Pay no mind to what critics think and say about you. The only sole person living your life and doing your time is you. Flourish and prosper in all that you set out to do in life. The sky's the limit. Time and tide wait for no man! Don't put off for tomorrow what you can do today. Work and study hard, it'll all pay off in the end. You can do it! 19 April 2009Dear Me, Though things might not be going your way, don't despair. Have an optimistic outlook on life. Remember: every cause has an effect. Remain focused on your goals. Stick to your priorities. Prison is a sojourn, not a permanent stay. There's still light at the end of the tunnel, so hold on and be strong. Only the strong survive! 20 April 2009Dear Me, Good things come to thos who wait. Have patience and good things shall come to you. Mind over matter. Stay in touch with reality at all times. Focus on your goals from the first moment you wake up! Life's too short to spend it on nonsense, make every punch you throw count. Money over bullshit! Get paid and be successful in this life. Don't be left behind, learn and prosper. Believe you can achieve all that you set your mind to accomplish. 21 April 2009Dear Me, Stay on the grind so you may advance in life! Remain on a high note and game tight. Stay in touch with reality! Focus on your goals form the fist moment you wake up. Don't be sidetracked by things that are nonsense. Business before pleasure! Everyday, keep a positive mental attitude (PMA). Allow no one to bring you down to a state of misery. Let your critics be your aspiration to reach greater heights! Mind over matter. Fight fire with fire. Don't be left behind, see the big picture! Capitalize on your mistakes as well as the mistakes of others. You can do it! 22 April 2009Dear World It's yet another dull day here in Ad-Seg. Not very much changes from one day to the next. The weather's great: not too hot, not too cold. I heard good news concerning the Ad-Seg education bill that was presented in the Texas Legislature: it passed! This means that now us inmates in Ad-Seg have the privilege to earn a GED. Myself, I don't have a GED but earnestly do want to earn one. I could never stay out of trouble long enough to complete my classes. Being here in Ad-Seg has given me plenty of time to get myself together mentally. God willing, when I do get released to the general population, I'm going to enroll in school. Everything that I am entitled to by law, I want it. I won't stop until I reach the top! I want to make a difference in the lives of many people. I refuse to let Hyperhydrosis hold me back from accomplishing my goals. I believe I can achieve! 23 April 2009Dear World, I'm in a bind doing time, cast away in a place no one in society really knows or understands. There's no such thing as rehabilitation. If one is serious about changing his/her life, then it must be done on your own. The prison system is a money-hungry business of benefits. It's all a mind game. Slowly but surely it's beginning to backfire on these people that have done so much wrong to so many innocent people. We are human beings, not animals! Truth and oil always rise to the top. Bad karma: what goes around comes back around. In my opinion, Ms. Justice and lady Liberty need glasses. 24 April 2009Dear God, Please forgive all of my transgressions and iniquities. Every passing day brings a new struggle into my life for reasons I don't know. Why? So much hatred and violence makes it hard to believe in a Creator and a Savior. When will all this turmoil and madness vanish into thin air? I long for a better change for all humanity. Lord, please give me the strength to carry on. Be my shield and sword as I battle the forces of all my foes. My prayers go out to all my loved ones, all incarcerated prisoners and their loved ones, everyone living in poverty and below the line of poverty, and to everyone here in the USA currently being affected by the economic crisis. In the name of Jesus Christ, I ask that you show us mercy so we shall flourish and prosper. 25 April 2009Dear Me, Don't be sidetracked by nonsense. Step up your consciousness!! Focus on your goals from the first moment you wake up. A one thousand mile journey begins with the first step. You can't expect to soar like an eagle if you hang out with the buzzards all day. So do your time, don't let time do you. Do your very best to try to keep a positive mental attitude. Be optimistic. Don't despair. Through the rain and the pain keep your sense of humor. Hard work and earnest studying will pay off in the long run. Good things come to those who wait patiently. Keep your heard held high and both feet on the ground. If you believe you can achieve! 4/26/09Dear World, Lately the temperature here in Ad-Seg has been very hot. For those that don't have a fan, I feel for you. A fan is a must have appliance here in prison. It's spring season but it feels like summer already. This sure ain't my type of weather. I'm a winter season type of person. Today, this morning, maintenance came into the section I stay in to work on the AC problem. Nothing's happened as of yet, so the problem hasn't been fixed. Hopefully it'll get fixed sooner than later. Hot weather tends to make many, many inmates aggravated and frustrated. Everyday I look forward to better days filled with bliss. I long to be free as the wind. Though I'm physically confined I am mentally free. 6 June 2009Dear World, The more I try not to think about my family, the more I do. Perhaps it maybe because I've got so much I want to tell them. I don't know what's the problem, but apparently something happened. When my grandmother passed away, I wasn't about it till they came up here to visit me for the first time. I hope that nothing bad has happened. My grandfather and grandmother, on my mother's side, they're both deceased. On my father's side, both my grandfather and grandmother are alive. The last I heard of my grandfather is that he's in the hospital because of an embolio. I hope and pray that everything is okay with my loved ones. 7 June 2009Dear Me, Stand strong in Hard Places. Tough times come and go as the seasons do. Keep your head held high the first moment you wake up. Mind over matter! Don't be sidetracked by nonsense, keep your priorities straight. At all times, do your very best to keep a positive mental attitude. Don't dwell on the past, focus on the here and now. Be optimistic about your future! Hope for the best, and prepare for the worst. Expand your horizon, knowledge is power. Stay on top of your game twenty-four seven. Ambition over adversity! Believe you can achieve and it shall become a reality. Flourish and prosper, in all that you set your mind to accomplish. The sky's the limit. 8 June 2009Dear Me, Keep pushing forward, soldier, better days shall arise. Focus on your goals from the first moment you wake up. Mind over matter! Don't off for tomorrow what can be done today. Take full advantage of the time you have, to educate yourself. Expand your horizon. Focus on the big picture. Strive to reach greater heights. Don't be left behind, stay on top of your game. Do your time, don't let time do you. Ambition over adversity! Be a part of the solution, not a part of the problem. Lead by example. Be the change you expect. Prove the critics wrong by prevailing in life. If you believe you can achieve. 9 June 2009Dear World, This morning, I sent an I-60 to the Major of Ad-Seg requesting to change my diet from Meat Free to Pork Free. Six months ago I changed my diet from Pork Free to Meat Free just for a change. Us inmates have three diet options: Regular, Pork Free, and Meat Free. We are all owed to change our diet once every six months. The main reason why I changed my diet from Pork Free to Meat Free is because I don't like the way most of the meals are prepared. After six months of Meat Free, I'm ready for a change. I really missed eating chicken patties and fried fish. I'm remaining on Pork Free. 10 June 2009Dear World, Still, no letter from any of my loved ones. Mail call came and left. A walk-by is all I received. Something tells me something is wrong. For what reason they don't want to communicate (with me) I do not know. I've mailed many, many letters to the house of my family. My days would go by much smoother if I'd know what's up with my family. It seems as though the more I attempt to reach out to them, the more I'm let down. I really want to know what the fuck is up. Time is not standing still. We are not getting any longer. I'd rather be told the truth than a lie. You're either with me or against me. Which one is it? I'm here today, may be gone tomorrow. The only certain in life is death. Till I breathe my last, I'm remaining a Thug till I d-i-e. 11 June 2009Dear World, Unexpectedly, today I received a letter from my little brother. Sent me a one page letter, telling me that he's okay and that he's sorry for not writing sooner. He mentioned in the letter that they're family coming to visit me soon. Everybody at home is okay. To receive a letter from my little brother sure did make my day, and uplifted my spirits. I'm glad that he finally took the time to drop me a line and tell me how he's doing. I'm gonna do my very best to guide him right, so that he doesn't make the same mistakes that I made. I want him to learn from the bad experiences I had in life. 12 June 2009Dear World, It's hell, living in a prison cell. I long for the day I'm liberated from this cruel environment. Not a day goes by that I don't think of my loved ones. No matter how long I'm incarcerated, I'll never be content living under these living conditions. It's only a matter of time, before I'm released back into general population. My day shall come! I can't be held here in AD-SEG forever! when I step out of G.P. I'm stepping out with the whole different mindset I've had before. My mindset is to attain a GED and a vocational train. To enroll in school is going to be my top priority, whenever released from here. I'm confident I can achieve everything I set my mind on. I shall flourish and prosper. 13 June 2009Dear Me, Stand tall through it all, soldier! Tough times shall come to pass, to make way for much better days. Keep your head held high and your feet on the ground. Focus on your goals from the first moment you wake up. Mind over matter! Pay no mind to the nonsense that's around you. Stay in touch with reality! Set your sights on the big picture. Don't be left behind, in the blind, stay tuned in to current events. The only constant in life is change, continue doing what you do, but with awareness. Open your mind, to expand your mental view. Succeed in life through determination. Never give up on yourself! Believe you can achieve, and it shall become a reality! 14 June 2009Dear Me, Stay strong in hard places. Worry not about things that are out of control. Live in the moment, because tomorrow is not guaranteed to come. Stay in touch with reality! Daily focus on your goals the moment you awake. Prison is a mere sojourn, your day shall come sooner than later. Hold on, be strong. They're still light at the end of the tunnel. Do your time, don't let time do you. Take full advantage of time you have on your hands to better educate yourself. Remember, knowledge is power. What you don't know may hurt you, and vice versa. Stay on top of your game. Capitalize of other's mistakes. Always stay three steps ahead of your foes. If you expect to prevail, in this lifetime, you must give it all you've got. Don't half-step. Attack it like a pack of wolves. Ambition over adversity twenty-four seven! Keep your eyes on the prize. Focus on the big picture. 15 June 2009Dear World, Today I went to the a dentist a appointment because I have a lump on my top gum. A few months ago, I had a tooth pulled for this reason. Now, the same lump has reappeared. This lump is a pocket of infection. The dentist come up today, told me he's going to put me on antibiotics to see if the infection will go away. If it doesn't, then they'd have to go in there and clean it out. I sure hope this medication makes this lump go away, because I don't want the dentist to perform oral surgery on me. 16 June 2009Dear Me, In hard places, stand firm! Keep your head up and both feet on the ground. Focus on your goals the first moment you awake. Stay in touch with reality. In these tough times, don't despair! Take it as a test. Face the madness with boldness and courage. Don't led up, continue to push forward in life. Life goes on. Don't dwell on the past, focus on the present. Take a stand against hyper-hydrosis. Don't allow your condition to dictate your life. Learn how to overcome, come it, flourish and prosper. 17 June 2009Dear Me, Keep marching forward, despite all the obstacles on your way. The more danger, the more honor. In a (told world), only the strong survive. Never hesitate to speak your mind and voice your opinion. Don't be sidetracked by nonsense - speaking-individuals. Remain focused on your goals. Mind over matter at all times. Keep your priorities in line. Ambition over adversity! Fight and strive to keep your dreams alive. Worry not about what others think and say. With awareness, continue doing what you do. 18 June 2009Dear World, Still in limbo! Ain't much changed around this camp. But still it's an unpleasant stay. I wonder what it feels like to be out of this wretched cell! Day by day, it seems impossible to cope with stressful circumstances. Prison livin condition ain't for a sane man. I'm struggling to find the good in life, but I seem to get the opposite. It feels as though I'm taking five steps forward, and ten steps backwards. I refuse to welcome defeat. Feel me? Deep inside, I know I'm a valiant man, filled with fire power. Who can understand the complex? I struggle (daily), with this duo which lives inside of me. Constraining constantly is playin tug-a-war with good and evil. I'm sick and tired of sick and tired. In reality, we must all fight smarter, not harder. 19 June 2009Dear World, Living with hyper hydrosis is pure hell. Doctors refused to give me treatment. They say there ain't nothing they can do. Since I've been here at Ad-Seg, only one doctor helped me. He issued me a medical pass which allows me to carry a towel to absorb excessive hand prespiration. The day this pass expired, it was not renewed by the current health provider. I was told, by her, that the pass shouldn't have been issued to me. I tried to explain to her my problem, but all she said was, (whenever your hands sweat, dry them on your shirt or your jumpsuit.) I really do need a medical path, so I carry a small towel to keep my hand dry. Whenever my hands perspire, they perspire a lot. There's nothing I can do to make them stop. It's like they've got a mind of their own. I need help, but the doctor here don't want to give it to me. Fuck her! I ain't going to kiss her ass or lose sleep behind it. I stand tall, winter spring summer and fall. 20 June 2009Dear Me , Stand firm, in hard places! Don't despair, better days shall come. Keep your head up! The full advantage of the time you have, to educate yourself and to prepare for the future, your stay, here in Ad-Seg, is a mere sojourn. Sooner, rather, you'll be released back into general population. Remain focused on your goals, daily. Ambition over adversity! Keep your eyes on the prize. Focus on the big picture! Hard work and determination will pay off abundantly in the long run. Take a stand against hyper hydrosis, don't allow this condition to hold you back, fight will all your might to overcome it. If you believe, you can achieve. Mind over matter. Pay no mind to irrelevant to matters. Through the rain and the pain, always remain the same. 21 June 2009Dear World, Today is father's day! The day the father is honored for his existence. Whether he is in or out, the fact that he is father remains fixed. Many of us incarcerated fathers are here because we have to, not because want to be. Hope all our kids can understand our pain and sorrow. Though we're far apart, they're always in our minds and our hearts. To all the fathers in the "free world..." stand by your kids, through the good and bad, thick and thin. Guide them right and let them lead the way. 22 June 2009Dear Me, Stand firm through these tough times you're currently going through. Remain focused on your goals. Don't dwell on the past, look to the future. Get what you expect out of life! Stay on the ground, at all times. Don't be sidetracked by irrelevant nonsense. If it don't make dollarz, it don't make sense. You ripe what you saw. Knowledge is power! Continue to stay in touch with reality! Don't be left behind, stay in step. Always, stay three steps ahead of your foes. If you wish to succeed in this lifetime, you must do it wholeheartedly. You can do it! Soldier! 23 June 2009Dear Me, Remain marching forward, soldier. It takes grinding to succeed in this life. Don't procrastinate what must be done, stay consistent. Ambition over adversity! Focus on your goals from the moment you awake. Take a stand against your enemy: hyper hydrosis. Don't permit this condition to dictate your life, again. Life life to the fullest! Though you're incarcerated, life goes on. Keep your head up and both feet on the ground. Hard time shall pass to make way for better dayz. Don't let Ad-Seg get you down. Make the best out of circumstances at hand. Take this time to prepare yourself for the day you'll be released back into general population. If you believe, you can definitely achieve. 24 June 2009Dear World, I received some good news today. My little sister sent me a father's day card, and a handwritten letter. Not long before I received this letter, I read a very interesting article in the USA Today newspaper. The article was concerning my condition hyper hidrosis. All of my questions concerning the disorder were answered in this article. About 3% of the US population is diagnosed with this condition. The article did state that there's a treatment for this condition. Knowing how this doctor here at Ad-Seg is, my chances at receiving the treatment are very slim. My little sister sure did uplift my spirits and made my day. Her letter really surprised me. Now I know and understand why it took her so long to respond to my letters. She said I should be receiving a visit from them some time next month. I'm looking forward to seeing them. I've got so much I want to say to all of them. 25 June 2009Dear Me, Stand firm in hard places, despite everything that's happening in your life. Tough times come and go as the four seasons do. Stand tall through it all, soldier! Hold on, be strong! Keep your head up and both feet on the ground. Daily, focus on the goals from the time you awake. Do your time, don't let time do you. Do what it takes to rise up from Ad-Seg. While in Ad-Seg, take full advantage of the time you have to enhance the mind's knowledge. Prepare yourself mentally, physically and spiritually for the day you're freed from Ad-Seg. |